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Now that it's more than a year since we lost Gina, people might expect it to get easier - the first anniversary has gone, the first Christmas has been avoided. The problem is (as Gina used to say), that's not how it works. The fact that it's now over a year means that we no longer have the "this time last year" moments to look back on. They somehow helped, and there's a feeling that we slowly forget the last year we had with Gina. Even though much of it was awful, there were brighter moments and at least a sense of purpose. As that fades into the past, it feels like we're losing more of her. Hanging onto memories id not easy; perhaps not possible.